I was thinking yesterday how in 2014 I will have technically been making photographs for 20 years.
(I think I’ve only gotten decent at it in the last three or four.) Seems like a long time on paper but in life practice it feels like I just recently dipped a toe in the mud pit. I was just in southern California - the desert down there is my favorite place in the usa - and got a meeting with a curator at the palm springs art museum. She had some good things to say but as far as I can tell I won’t be having a solo show there or anything. I’m not famous or anything yet.
For a while I never wanted to be in a gallery or even sell my work, but now as I am 40+ years old my desires have gotten clearer and I’d like to get my work in museum collections and have a gallery represent me. The selection of work is so subjective and what seems to be the only way to get closer to “The Dream” is to just keep on keeping on. Keep attempting to make relevant work and keep getting it in front of people.
I also just submitted work to a show juried by the photography curator of the Denver Art Museum. My work was not chosen for the show but it was placed in a “special mention” section and will be part of the show catalog. So basically, I lose again.
Here is an instant photo of my neighbor’s rooster.
Why? The simple act of photographing is what keeps me making work. Some have said the camera is a tool to help us see more, see better. When I pick up my camera my attention shifts and expands. It’s hard to explain but I use my whole body to see not just my eyes - I can literally feel space in a seeing way. Again, hard to explain but it keeps me looking and keeps me hungry for more.
I’m currently reevaluating what I want from photography and what my next series will be. I have several film ideas I’ve been putting on the back burner while I gather my resources and edit my photographic series further. I make photos every day and that is one sort of practice. Sometimes asking oneself what the next subject matter will be is putting the cart before the horse. The shooting brings the subject forward. I’m not sure what’s next but I’m open to putting the camera down and just looking too.